Drowning in my thoughts

Sometimes I wonder why people go out of their way to say things that would hurt someone who loves them... "You want that feeling but Im not going to give it to you." I understand why regular people fall into depression. The older I get, the more im expecting but really... What am I expecting? I wonder what really would have happened if I never got myself into this mess. Would I have been happier? Married? With kids? I feel so sad all the time... Cant help but feel abandoned and helpless. 

Love stories

When I watch or read romantic stories... I envy them and wish someday it'll be me telling our story. 

Dreams

I find myself waking up crying lately. It seems that Im always getting screwed over in my dream. Must be an epiphany...

The Blues

Sometimes when you are around someone for so long... You're not sure what to do when they are not around.

My fuzzy

Baby bear summer snoozin' with mama bearr

Message Board

Gave my message board a makeover. Thought it was looking ugly. So heres the new!

Not really a step by step explanation but.... you can see the process below...

You need some fabric...

Either felt, foam, or some kind of cushion under the fabric

Some floral decoration. Optional.

Staple the felt + fabric together to the board.

Get ribbon and staple them and create a diamond pattern

Designs are up to you. I decided to do diamonds.

Finished. Used the florals to cover the staples and glued on some rhinestones on the ribbons.

Photo/Message board in use. Hung on some charms and buttons.

Thought this might inspire someone to make their own board. Doesn't take much, just make sure to be careful using a staple gun. <3

Nyan Cat Costume

Promised my baby cousin that I will sew up a nyan cat costume couple weeks ago. I finally got around to doing it today so heres the complete results!

J.E.T. as Nyan Cat

The whole thing was sewn by me <3 It looks kind of whatever but I figure she would only wear it for this year so it was quickly/sloppily put together with a sewer and some fabric adhesive. Well, happy hallows eve <3 have fun tomorrow!

Team San Jose project

For BUS119A we are creating the interface for a mobile website for SanJose.Org. This is their current mobile website here.
Current version of our interface: http://jen-tran.com/school/BUS119A/teamsj.php
Project Directory of all school files: http://jen-tran.com/school/

Job Interview

Had a job interview at Western Digital last Saturday. It was short and honestly the supervisor there is pretty laid back. I got the job! Just waiting for the time and date for training and open available position. -_- I feel a little secure now about my financials since this job is going to be enough to take care of my mom and I for awhile. Wish me luck!

Moving!

Difficult times has not completely rolled over for me. My mom and I will be moving from a 2 bedroom apartment down to a studio. Yes. Where to put all our crap? Who knows. All I know is I'm going to have to scrap a lot of things, give up my fish tanks + fishies, and bed. So the pleasant aftermath? A clean slate, clean room, better organization. No more being a hoarder and buying useless knick knacks and definitely no more impulse buying. <3 I got plenty of projects! Probably going to toss out my computer table for a new compact computer desk with shelves definitely and possibly make a heart shape wall shelf <3 Spray paint some things pink and viola... pink goodness! TT4N!

Sadness

Its been three months since you have left. I destroyed myself and people around me. I wish we can rewind time so that I could of been there to tell you that I love you more than I ever did. Dad you were my world...  but you're gone. Phil is my world now... *sighs* I can't stop crying. It wont bring you back but I feel that if i don't mourn your death... it'll bring guilt to my soul. I cant get over it. You've been here all my life... you've taken care of me... you've done everything for me... and then you just passed away... ripping a piece of my heart with you. I cant fix the fact that you're not in this world anymore but I can fix my relationship with the person I love just as much as I love you. Please lend me a helping hand, let me cope, let things be all better.

Changes

I wish life was simpler than it really is. Finding a job is tough. Coping is unbearable. I'm just super stressed right now. I have too much free time and I wish I had better things to do with it. I got another month til school and I'm totally looking forward to it. I just want to be productive. Lately, everyone has been a downer. Makes me a downer! I'm feeling super alone and alienated but I don't want to be super emo about it. Despite all that, I'm always optimistic sooooo I hope work is out there for me!

Dazzle Dusted Nails

Its summer and its time for a spark of magic! Dazzle Dusted Nails seem to be this summer's trend. It is cute and sparkly at the same time. Can be worn simple or you can deco your nails with crystals, bows, decals etc. I glued on crystals and made some teeny little nail bows.

No flash

In direct sunlight

I'm not really a tutorial person but I'll tell you what I did... I used celeb city by sally hansen and created a simple french tip manicure. I then coated my  nails halfway with shooting star by china glaze. Top coated with Sephora Only Gold For Me top coat. I then glue some crystal flatbacks and pink bow decos. I'll probably going to do a simple tutorial on how to make nail bows. <3 Later gators!

ADDED:
Found a similar tutorial online to do these nails. Check it out!

Product Photosession with Helen

Had fun with my little sister, Helen, taking pictures of my newly churned up charms. Honestly, it felt like we snapped over 50 pictures but I ended up selecting just a few. <3 Edited and charms, jewelry seen here can be purchased at my online shop called YummieCharms.Com. Pictures from today:

Charms and Jewelry for sale

Made a lot of new items recently. Just wanted to put them up for sale. It would be great if everyone can support my hobby ;) You can buy these at YummieCharms.com

French Macaroon Charm Tutorial Posted

Hey guys. This is my first tutorial that I have ever made so I'm pretty excited. This is a tutorial to make French Macaroon Charms. You can find the instructions here! French Macaroon Tutorial.

French Macaroon Charm Tutorial

Sneak Peak of my French Macaroon Charm tutorial that I'll be posting soon. So excited! I'm also going to post a picture of my new nail design for Independence Day!

The tutorial will probably be posted tomorrow night. :)

China Glaze

Bought a few summer colors the other day in addition to the Its My Year polish from my recent post. :) They're bright and fun. No swatches just yet... But first... Swatch of Shooting Star by China Glaze that I been meaning to post a picture of...

China Glaze Shooting Star

Here are my new beauties! <3 Swatches of colors coming soon <3

Its my year...

Ha... not really! However its my day since I Just picked up a few new polishes for the summer. New from OPI's Miss Universe collection, Its My Year. Its a dark purple with gold shimmer flecks. Its pretty nice upclose but I dont know how I feel about it from afar... It just kind of look like a brown mess. When you swipe this polish on your nail, the polish feels gritty to the touch when its dried.

 

with flash

Javascript

Since I was in 5th grade, I have been fascinated with the internet. My favorite search was about Sailor Moon. Somewhere in the line of looking at fansites about Sailor Moon that I thought about making my own website. I started out with a pre-existing template to going onto forums about starting a webpage from scratch. This has lead me learning about HTML. My HTML skills are self-taught. Although I may not know all the HTML codes, I feel that I am very competent in creating a webpage through using HTML without help. I enjoy creating templates and design so learning HTML was fun for me.

Fast forward a decade later, I've taught myself CSS. I went to school for basic programming and now I'm here trying to teach myself Javascript. Honestly, Javascript is very interesting but difficult because its case sensitive! I was so use to working with Visual Basic because it has intellisense which made it easier to type codes. I'm just a beginner but I hope to do better! I wrote a script to navigate back and forth at the top of each page. Its pretty fun! Will be testing more out soon :)

The challenge for myself this summer is to learn JavaScript or at least the basics of it! In order to retain that knowledge, I am going to try and apply all that I've learn into Jen-Tran.Com. Wish me luck!

Challenge: Basic JavaScript Knowledge
Duration: End of summer 2011
Starting today, June 28, 2011.