Life

Life is different without my father. Mom is doing better than she was last week. Finally spent the day with just mom and I at home without Helen... it turned out fine. Took her to Eastridge and cooked pork chops at home.

I know things are so random. I don't know what to say but thanks to all my family and friends. My fathers funeral went well and had a bigger crowd than we expected. I'm sure he felt very appreciated and loved. But this chapter has ended and another will begin... I feel like my life should change for the better. I have to find a job and work harder in school. I need to take care of my mom now. I feel that she needs to also move on with life and not take care of anyone other than herself. Something she hasn't been doing since I was born. Been going to the temple with mom and kneeling like there is no tomorrow! I have a new found respect for those who pray all day on their knees. Its not easy! My knees are all bruised! The monk made fun of me saying, "you seem like you're in pain because I saw you fidgeting."

Ahhh. The show must go on right? I'm sure my dad doesn't want to see us all down and crying. He would want us to take better care of ourselves and just live life. He loves us as do we love him. Everything will be ok as long as we try.

R.I.P. Daddy

I love you dad. You are my everything and I wish your afterlife turns out better for you. I will always remember and cherish my precious time with you and all the memories we have created. Its hard for me to accept that you are gone now since your health declined so fast. I miss you very much dad. Please don't wander around aimlessly in limbo and just find peace with Buddha and Grandfather. Everyone here loves you and fondly remembers you. You are our precious father that no one can replace. I only wish you were able to live a little longer and healthier life.

Tran T. Huy
October 28, 1954 (June 29, 1959) - June 7, 2011 @ 6:38pm
I love you.

Dad's Viewing is at Alameda Family on Sunday, June 12, 2011 from 9:00am to 2:00pm
12341 Saratoga-Sunnyvale Rd., Saratoga, CA 95070

Reality Check

The most painful decision in life is how will you decide to put an end to your love ones life. My father has had a serious stroke and it has left him incapacitated. He is on hospice care and now his health has taken a complete dive downhill. It is scary knowing that there isn't anything we can do to save him so we are left with the ethical question of should we treat him or not? He is most likely infected with a pneumonia and other infections. Doctors say he has months or even weeks to live. They also say that most patients die because of a pneumonia and that it was the best way to go for any person in his condition. I wish it wasn't true and I really was hopeful of him to pull through all the obstacles however this isn't the case anymore. the reality of everything has finally hit our family and we must be strong to make preparations for the oncoming months. What I am saying is... my father is dying and whether we want to treat his pneumonia or let him die because of it. If we treat his pneumonia, it will come back anyway because he can't move therefore he has a high chance of catching a pneumonia again... That means we will prolong his suffering on back pains, bed sores, and further infections just to maintain our selfish needs of not wanting to let him go... Honestly, it is hard... very hard to see your precious person die but it is even harder just watching them suffer slowly until he passes away. Do we really want to aggressively let him pass away... or just prolong his suffering? His functionality will never recover and his brain is already in a vegetable like state... What should we do? I know the best thing for him is just to let him go but its difficult to say goodbye. I love my father very much but it is little that we can do to help ease his pain or help him at all...

Lace Pattern Vector

Found an awesome site for cute lace pattern vectors. Thought it might be nice to share. Lace Patterns

Sneak Peak: Salve/Balm

Its really been quite a while since I developed any new flavor of lip balms or anything apothecary related. I just didn't have time and space to do any of that. However I decided I am going to create a new salve/balm for cracked skin, dry elbows, chapped lips <3 I'm excited! Time to work on the labels!